Finding the courage to carry on after the death of your significant other is one of the greatest challenges you can face in this life. Gold Star wife Audra Ames has felt the weight of that loss firsthand. Ames met her husband, Air Force 1st Lieutenant Scot “Rowdy” Ames Jr, in February 2018 when he approached her at a bar in Terre Haute, Indiana. That first night, she was out with Scot until 3 AM—the connection was like no other she’d experienced.
While Scot attended Undergraduate Pilot Training (UPT) for two years, the couple lived 9 hours apart, spending long hours on FaceTime and meeting halfway between Mississippi and Illinois just to spend the afternoon together. Despite the travel—and the fact that Scot’s car had no air conditioning—their long-distance romance blossomed, and Audra cherished every second. As she puts it, “I hated every goodbye.”

After Scot finished training, he was selected as an FAIP (First Assignment Instructor Pilot) for the 50th Flying Training Squadron. June 2020, while Scot was at PIT (Pilot Instructor Training) they were finally reunited at their home in Mississippi. Shortly thereafter, they eloped at the courthouse in Columbus.
Despite the specter of danger that hung over their relationship, the two spent 8 months together in marital bliss, in part thanks to Scot’s eternally positive disposition. “Scot was also humble and well-respected. During his 8 months as an IP (Instructor Pilot) he was voted a favorite by students and was loved by his colleagues.” Ames tells. “I had no idea he was voted as the favorite IP until after he died—he left the awards at his desk and didn’t boast to me; he was simply doing his job, something he loved so much.”

One ordinary morning, Ames hugged and kissed her husband goodbye in the kitchen, unaware that it would be the last time. “If I had known that was the last time I would ever get to hug him, I would have held on a lot longer and squeezed him tighter,” she says. Around 5 PM on February 19th, 2021, Scot’s plane crashed in a wooded area outside Dannelly Field in Montgomery, Alabama. Checking her phone for his location, Audra immediately developed a pit in her stomach, but tried to stay hopeful. It wasn’t until she saw an article on the news that evening that she fell to her knees, knowing he was really gone.

Through the funeral, many memorials, and countless meetings with the Air Force about finances, Ames suffered wave upon wave of grief, turning to her friends and family for support. Though she hadn’t met them before his death, the 50th Flying Training Squadron and their spouses became her greatest allies, welcoming her with open arms in her time of need. She was also supported by many other Gold Star Spouses and her TAPS mentor, Sonia.
“During our years together, Scot taught me many things I will never forget. Arguably one of the most important things I learned from him was how to live each day as if it were my last—how to be bold, courageous, and joyful.”

Today, Audra Ames lives in Indianapolis, Indiana, where she works as a Certified Financial Planner. She also runs the Scot “Rowdy” Ames Jr. Foundation, which helps aspiring pilots get their wings by funding flight hours, classes, and other programs they need.